Today, he realized that he's been sober for 6 weeks. He realized that this is the longest time span that he has been sober for in 5 years. Can you imagine what it's like to be controlled by something for over 5 years? I mean, it's a daily battle for him to stay sober right … Continue reading 5 years
So as any married person can tell you, there are good days and there are bad. My husband and I have been experiencing a lot of bad days lately. I don't know why. But he's been clean for pretty much a whole month already. And I am starting to wonder if the problem isn't with … Continue reading Marriage
I stumbled upon this a couple of days ago and wanted to share with you guys: "Funny, I don't remember no good dope days. I remember walking for miles in a dope fiend haze. I remember sleeping in houses that had no electric. I remember being called a junkie, but I couldn't accept it. I … Continue reading Heroin Addiction Poem
The naltrexone is doing much better in his system. I honestly think they dosed him way too much with the shot. Next time we go, he will ask and see if there is a lower dose or a pill form he can take. It doesn't take away his cravings, but it helps with not taking … Continue reading Two weeks later…
So, here's an update on how the Naltrexone shot is doing. It certainly is fulfilling its job. It won't allow my husband to get even a buzz from alcohol. The only problem with it: it takes the enjoyment out of absolutely EVERYTHING. Life has been crazy busy and hectic lately. We went to church today, … Continue reading Update.
So.. We finally did it. My husband and I finally found a place that would prescribe and give him the naltrexone that the psychologist recommended to help with the cravings and the drug addiction. And let me tell you this: it's one of the worst things possible. So he went and got an injection. First … Continue reading Naltrexone- DO NOT DO IT
This past weekend, we make a deal: I would not move out if he stayed completely sober Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It is now Monday, and he kept up his end of the deal. We are hoping to extend this streak throughout this whole next week as well. We are planning on going on vacation … Continue reading We had a deal.
Today is the big day. The day that he will stop using drugs. You know why? Because we are going to a doctor's appointment today. And, at this appointment, what will hopefully happen is that the doctor will be nice, and will be sympathetic. And he/she will prescribe my husband the damn anti-opioid abuse medication … Continue reading Today is the day.
So, as yesterday was payday, of course, he gets something as a pick me up. As per usual, we had an agreement that he'd take a quarter, give me the rest for safekeeping. Can you all see where this is headed? Anyways, we went out to date night last night and went to watch Wonder … Continue reading Last Night
We all need them. For the past two days, I've really needed it. Yesterday, I woke up and was literally paralyzed with depression and anxiety. I could not get myself out of bed. I contemplated everything I had to do that day, and I was overcome by sheer panic. So, I did the only thing … Continue reading Mental Health Days