So, as yesterday was payday, of course, he gets something as a pick me up. As per usual, we had an agreement that he'd take a quarter, give me the rest for safekeeping. Can you all see where this is headed? Anyways, we went out to date night last night and went to watch Wonder … Continue reading Last Night
We all need them. For the past two days, I've really needed it. Yesterday, I woke up and was literally paralyzed with depression and anxiety. I could not get myself out of bed. I contemplated everything I had to do that day, and I was overcome by sheer panic. So, I did the only thing … Continue reading Mental Health Days
There is a huge outcry about addiction. But what resources are there to actually help someone stop? I am so frustrated with insurance and stupid rules. While this psychologist is great for counseling, he can't prescribe anything to help with cravings, so we have to hop around and call literally 700 different psychiatrists who are … Continue reading Frustrations
Have you ever looked around you and all you see is happy people when you are miserable? Yeah, that's about how my life is right now. Everyone seems to have it a little better than how my life has turned out. Even though, rationally, I know so many other people have it much worse. I … Continue reading We Have A Disappointment
The following are just some things that people say that piss me off: You need to forgive him. Really? Is that your professional opinion Mr. IDon'tRememberAskingYouForYourOpinion. What would you know about forgiveness and living with this shit day in and day out? I think you need to leave him. Really? You just think? Listen, that's … Continue reading What an outcry.
I recently saw this on another blog here and went onto google the other links found below. This is eye opening. Um. Hello. .. But wait, there's more... How crazy is that?? Why is there not a huge outcry about this? Why is America not paying attention to this trend? If you want to see more: https://www.drugabuse.gov/related-topics/trends-statistics/overdose-death-rates … Continue reading WOW
It's been a while. And there really isn't a rhyme or reason for it. Just life. Life gets busy sometimes. Don't you all agree? Life has been going pretty weird in this household since we last spoke. He hasn't gotten any better; slightly worse. He is using every day, however, to his credit, it's only … Continue reading Oh Boy, Please Don’t be Mad.
He didn't last. Literally, cannot last a whole day without drugs. However, he is taking less and less with each day, so one pill is lasting longer and longer. Which is good. Today, I am not even mad. I've grown simply apathetic to this whole situation. He was honest and open with me about his … Continue reading Addiction is a Disease
For the past week, I've been promising myself that I'd get my life together. I'd start waking up early and going to workout and lead a healthy lifestyle. Well, that isn't happening. I figure that since my personal life is going to crumbles, at least my social life would pick up? Maybe my work environment … Continue reading Late Late Late
He spent literally 2 hours begging for my forgiveness today. He apologized in the only real way that he knows how. He cooked for me. My husband is a really good cook. Only when he wants to be though. We typically get takeout or frozen meals just because he doesn't want to cook all the … Continue reading His Apology